I have been through the ringer for the past year and I started my blog to tell people about who I am and what I gone through. Last year, was the best time to prove that— for me. My surgery changed me and I value my life more now than before because my mom did it by herself. I want to finish the book that I’ve been writing for two years, I want to travel the world just because people told me I couldn’t. One thing I realized is having CP is hard but, it’s the only thing I’ve ever known. People say I can be who I want— others say it’s a pipe dream. Blogging has shed light on my life for the past year when the pain was too much to handle. I didn’t do it for the fame or recognition— that will come in time. Right now, I like being unpredictable and having fun. It helps me forget about the pain.
Blogging makes me feel like I’m in a different world and has taught me to joke around and not take it seriously. That’s what makes it fun doing things on my time. No one telling me what to write or how… I almost took that all for granted, I lost my way and stopped enjoying my blog. For awhile it made me not want to post but things are changing for the better. I overwork myself and plan so much because I want this to be where people can share their stories. Weeks leading up to the launch I was so scared out of my mind and that’s a good thing. I thought being a robot would help— no it just shorted out my circuits… get it? No? Okay, bad joke. Best thing I can do is not make a promise… promises can’t be broken if you never make them. If your're asking me for advice on how to fix it or anything in that spectrum I can't help you, I'm still learning.
** I will only blog about what I know and what flows, no more trying to hard to write a post that doesn’t sit right with me. After all, this is It’s Just Chyna and the meaning of this blog got lost along the way but, it’s back.**