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Welcome to another part of my life. One I kept private for the better part of two years...but in this case I'm sharing all because why not? When I was in middle school I started writing just to keep myself occupied because I was bored wiith doing the same assignment...I never thought it would be something I would want the world to see until now.
In a way each poem shares a deeper meaning, a memory and a part of my life.
I wrote this poem Oct 5, 2016 and I haven't read it until this post but it brought me back to that memory and the place I was when I wrote it. Let me just say I'm happy to be sharing such a valueable part of me.
Caged
Silence, made to be louder than noise…
if cries of pain are never enough what is?
Dead flower in a meadow--
just me alone
Worn down with an empty soul
not even a whisper could fill this void
This is a dream… right?
Locked in a mindset, unable to forget---
look at what you've done
torn a fragile heart in two, but that’s normal.
Caged...is my fragile heart.
Caged… are the feelings, to afraid to be released.
Caged… is a mind that always feared the worst.
It’s okay she’s bruised, not broken.
She’s forgiving...not forgetful.
Simply…. just...caged
This is the first of many installments to Virtual Journals x Chyna so I hope you enjoyed.
See you later Chyna
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