I don’t really know how this post is going to go but it’s worth a shot. I’m not an extraordinary case and I don’t have it all together, at least not yet. I turned 19 today, and this is my time to reflect which I do quite often. But, where do I begin?
I am a twin, born on October 26, 1998. I am the oldest but it’s only by a minute...it always counts. I have cerebral palsy and I’m not able to walk and it took a long time to be okay with that. I not going to tell my entire life story in this post...only the important parts. When, I was fourteen or maybe a little before that I stopped practicing to walk, it just wasn’t convenient. I felt this pain in my right leg and of course I thought it was normal because with CP pain, for me, was almost guaranteed.
I had to move to a new school and that’s when things kind of changed forever. I got really sick and had to be in the hospital and it was right before my little sister's birthday. The doctor’s did an X-ray and they came by and said “Did you know she had a dislocated hip?” I was shocked to say the least and so was my mom. Who know how long it was dislocated before we discovered it.
I was a freshman and it was determined back then fixing my hip wouldn’t help because my muscles were so tight. I got used to the pain, I let go of the dream I had as young girl, and I moved on. To find ways to cope, I wrote. About anything and everything… I smiled and everything was good.
5 years later…
June 22, 2017
I had my surgery. I’ve had surgery before but I was too young to remember what the pain felt like. Because, my muscle were so tight I could only move a little it was a difficult time. I felt useless...like the pain would never stop. With time it got better but I’m always in pain. After the surgery, I was in and out of the hospital… so much I’m on a first name basis with a few nurses.
I had another operation on July 25, 2017 so in totally that equal four my entire life.
Pretty much from the end of June to August I was sick with back to back visits but, I’m healthy now and that’s all that matters. I’m so thankful for my family for putting up with me because, I’m not easy to be around when I’m in pain.
These last few months… From June to October is what’s giving me a hard time.
Wow, this was an eye opener.
Happy Birthday to my twin. We are polar opposites but you are my best friend, I hope your day is just a good as mine. Forever bonded.
My story is far from over. My journey has not ended. My life has just begun.